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Love in an Unexpected Place

8 Jun

bizarre dreaming

4 Feb

In my continuation of the dream theme, last night mine was quite bizarre. I dreamed I was having open heart surgery. It was apparently a more simple procedure than most people might have and so I was under a general anesthetic. My incision spiraled around my heart, down the left side of my body, across my lower abdomen and up the right side of my body. I started to wake when the female doctor was finishing the last stitches. I did not feel any pain but could feel the tugging as she sewed me together.

The next dream I was at home, a different home than I live in, but my home in the dream. It was a two storey home, large wood siding gray in colour. I remembering wondering why nobody was asking about the surgery or even seeming to notice my body’s shape as I walked or shuffled around the main floor of the house. The main floor of the house was actually on the second storey which had a large deck off the living room/hallway. My spoke with my daughters, asking them to pick up their dirty clothes off their bedroom floor. My elder daughter proceeded to stuff four nice sweaters into a black cloth bag. The bag has a draw string closure which she pulled tight before saying she had made a new door stop. I was not happy that she had stuffed her nice sweaters into a bag she intended to use as a door stop. Her Dad came to her defense saying what a great idea it was. I looked in the bag and remember distinctly one light gray sweater which was a light weight wool and adorned with pale pink rhinestones.

To calm myself I went outside on the deck, but took a green plastic watering can with me so everyone would think I was going outside to do something, other than get away from the situation inside. The deck was wet with rain water and the sky was gray as though it was going to rain again. When I looked in the planters they were all full of rain water and I felt foolish for bringing the watering can outside with me. I remember talking to myself about how silly it was.

I have not figured out what the meaning of this dream yet. Lots of gray colour, feelings of inadequacy, sadness, embarrassment and concern over what others thought. I was trying to look busy with purpose than have people know or see my feelings. Moving away from emotions or emotionally tense situations. I was not grounded, even the main floor of the house was on the second storey which gives me the feeling of being ungrounded. The plants were over watered by Mother nature, drowning in their planters. To fix my heart the doctor had to cut open my entire core. I’m unsure what that speaks to me.

I will have to sit with this dream a bit longer to understand the meaning and message for me. Where do I feel inadequate in my life now? This is the question I hear and need to answer.

the dreams of a stay at home Mom

14 Jan

Imagine waking up every morning with the feeling that you will accomplish everything your heart desires. Think about it, and it will happen. The business you want to open, the unfulfilled dream, the path you yearn to explore, the unseen view from your window. What would your response be if someone told you, “It’s all out there waiting for you!” 

This is the year I plan to explore manifesting my desires!  I have read enough books, watched enough movies, heard about other women whose dreams came true. I’m ready to jump up and down scream, “When is it my turn?”   I’m not a yogi and I don’t meditate daily. I am a recently unemployed stay at home Mom, who volunteers for almost everything because I can’t say no.  I am a devoted Mom who takes time for herself at least once a week to sing with a choir when I’d rather be singing solos to get all the applause. I do my best not to live vicariously through my children, but to encourage them to live their dream.

So this is it. This is my year. I’m 44 and ready to make it all happen. In 2010, I’m going to finally start to live my dream…if I can figure out what that dream is!  

Who’s with me? I dare you to dream along this year too!

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